Friday, April 5, 2019

Retrospecting last 8 years....

[Disclaimer: This post is neither to gain any sympathies nor to make you call me ‘inspiring ‘or like that... Just today, I felt to share some of the part of my little journey so far... Neither it is to blame or hurt anyone. What I'm expressing here are real facts and incidents. What I’m sharing is not to make it associated to my physicality as that doesn’t make ‘me’, though it’s going to be my part throughout].

Looking back is too early at this phase. But, retrospection is always preferable to keep ourselves on the right track in the present and even in the future.
After my graduation in 2006, I faced an ailment for almost whole year throughout in 2007 and was treated for it. But, painting and learning design kept me going through it.
I had studied for elementary and intermediate exams of drawing and painting under the guidance of my art teacher Artist Shri. Rakesh Deorukhkar who guided me well whenever possible. I achieved B+ grade in the intermediate exam in 2008 by appearing as an external student.
I also completed a correspondence course of one year duration, 'Diploma in DTP' (DeskTop Publishing) in 2008-2009 from a private institution in Pune.
After a self study of graphic design for almost four years after graduation in English and History, finally, I started working as freelance graphic designer and artist on 4th April 2011 (Gudhipadwa) under a name 'Dzyn Studio' from legally created workspace at home. My father told, "give importance to quality of your work than quantity always!". 
Without the wonderful co-operation and guidance of my technician friend who is hardware engineer, Shri. Mansoor Nadkar, my technical support for 24x7x365, this wouldn't have been possible at all.
All of my mentors from CorelDRAW Community, my designer and artist friends have been with me throughout each phase of my journey. Some of them are no more and have left forever whom I really miss always. The printing press 'InkFloat' has been very co-operative to get my vector graphics printed well. it was suggested to me by one of my very talented mentor CorelDRAW Master Artist Shri. Anand Dixit, who has always helped me to upgrade my versions of my all-time favourite software CorelDRAW.
After starting my work, tougher part was ahead, facing many different kinds of mentalities almost daily at each step.
While learning graphic design, since beginning there was negativity surrounding me. I was literally called insane, an emotional fool who was unable to differentiate between practicality of life, as if I didn't know the importance of steady and stable life and income. Almost none believed in my dream except my sister Kshama.
I was continuously being hammered by so many others that I should start tuitions or work as a teacher only and leave this path of pursuing graphic design and painting. I had been facing this hammering till recently but I simply didn't budge and have kept travelling on my path. Be it wrong or right, its my own. I wanted to create my own identity. It wasn't easy as already my father's and paternal family's huge hard-earned success and reputation for their honest work has been bigger and it was hard to carve my own niche.
Even an artist I considered as my mentor indirectly and who created designs for our factory, told me that this field isn't for females from the little town like ours, especially if they are working from home, as one would need to go out and meet clients or hired models for photography needed for commercial designs as that time, internet service was not much available in our hilly area initially. Also, reality was design files were not compatible to be sent by email and required to be sent through floppy disk or CD only via courier or required sending personally, during that time. He also had told me to rather learn animation than graphic design as it was trendy that time. But, I believed time will change till I start working and of course it did later. But his guidance for just an hour once about graphic design and software CorelDRAW, has proved forever helpful for me even till now. I always kept studying his designs by observation.
I was frequently asked what do I do at home. Whenever I told, I work as a freelance graphic designer and artist, I received strange replies, for example, "do you work as a hobby?", "why do you need to work as you are from a well-settled family?!", "you must be getting a good timepass, what else would you do at home otherwise?!", etc.
Things started changing since my vector graphics created in CorelDRAW 'Yellow Flower' and 'Wild Flowers Branch' won 5th and 4th prize in 'Corel Asia Pacific Digital Art Competition' held by Corel Corporation (Taiwan), a division of Corel Corporation (Canada), in 2010 and 2011-2012. In 2011, my vector graphic 'White Lilies' won 3rd prize in 'CorelDRAW International Design Contest' which was held worldwide by Corel Corporation (Canada). These prizes included licensed versions of softwares like CorelDRAW and Corel Painter along with some other softwares and also a certificate, electronic gadgets like headphones, stylus and tablet used to draw digitally and such things. More importantly, the vector graphic 'White Lilies' was displayed on the official website of CorelDRAW from year 2011 till 2019, also used on their social media and used for their promotional purposes. It was also printed as an example in the printed guidebook (user manual) of 15th version of CorelDRAW (CorelDRAW X5).
Since beginning, I was just a member artist of the official CorelDRAW Community on their website and now, since last 3-4 years, I was made one of the admins of CorelDRAW Community on Facebook (created by the members) by other admins. That time and still, I have been the youngest, less experienced than them all. This has been a wonderful experience for me to learn more and more be more tolerant about the views and ideas of others about design as well as  Currently, the group has more than 15000 member artists from all the countries throughout the world who use CorelDRAW and daily the membership is growing rapidly. Here, members share their ideas and concepts through design, technical issues which they face as a designer while using the software. The members of the community and admins comprises of beta testers appointed by Corel Corporation and also, officially declared CorelDRAW Master Artists. Hence, this was a very pleasant surprise for me and a wonderful opportunity to work with them all. I just wish more female designers join and actively engage in sharing their experiences and issues because till now, I'm the only one female designer in the team of admins. I'm still learning and I'm not yet much efficient enough as other very experienced admins but I try maximum to help the members to sort their issues with design. I'm fortunate to have many talented designers as my mentors and friends through this community.
Because of the wonderful mentors, I learnt that I could use licensed versions of CorelDRAW and became a premium member. Since beginning, so far I have used CorelDRAW 7, 8, 11th, 13th (X3), 14 (X4), 15th (X5) (this version was among my prize software), 16th (X6), 17th (X7), 18th (X8) and currently using CorelDRAW 2018 (19th) and soon will be upgrading to the new version 2019 (20th) for creating my vector graphics.
I love to create vector graphics more than bitmap graphics. Most people have a common prejudice that vector graphics have a limitation in creating them than bitmaps. But, no, that's not completely true. Instead they have many advantages than bitmaps as they can be scaled to any size without losing clarity while conversions and printing. They are 2D graphics but can appear almost like 3D as well if properly created. So, they are bit difficult to create but that makes them my favourite! Design has been my passion....
I also have been always learning painting through various mediums. I use graphite pencils, colour pencils, glitter gelpens, gelpens, technical pens, brushpens, acrylic colours, watercolours. I love to paint even with oil colours but stopped it because the weather at my town is generally humid and painting doesn't get properly dry, thus it damages earlier with fungus or dirt particles in the air.
In 2009, one of my colour pencil painting was selected by very senior Artist Shri. Ravi Paranjpe Sir and given third prize in a competition and exhibition held by the NGO 'Nivedita Pratishthan' in Pune. Later, I had participated in the group exhibitions by the same NGO but they started using my physicality to gain sympathies which I actually never had associated with my passion. Even later at the first experience of group exhibition at Balgandharv Kaladalan (Pune) through this NGO, I was used by them to gain the sympathy in front of chief guests and my paintings were sold to those who didn't even were interested in the art genuinely, leave alone getting an honest critique which helps to improve. This made other co artists obviously furious as their beautiful works were simply ignored by the chief guests and the co artists simply left me out who had been so friendly till then and no one talked to me after that. It was such an insult.... I stopped attending the exhibitions since then though I have been participating, just to seek honest critique and to not let anyone focus on my physicality than my work. I always prefer to get honest criticism than false praise. I do miss meeting other art lovers, getting advice from the senior artists and attending art demos at the exhibitions, as I'm not present there. But, mentalities of categorising of people as inspiring prohibits them from living a normal life. This fact affects my life frequently, especially when it is related to my work. If I don't associate it with my work, why should others?! Even after my requests, they didn't stop this, so, I myself left the group by NGO.
I have participated in various other group exhibitions at Pune and also in Mumbai till now. My paintings were displayed and sold in such exhibitions without revealing why I'm absent and that was a proof that quality of work matters even in the absence of artist.
Also, the inaccessible, incompatible places for wheelchair makes me avoid attending or being present at my display of artworks like other artists.
Through design, I met many new people, new friends and artists. A whole new world opened up for me through design daily....
My clientale has spread from various places and from various fields. Creating graphics for them helped me learn something new everytime and also to improve as an artist.
Whenever I felt low or depressed, my mother kept telling me to continue by pausing temporarily for a bit and not to stop my work permanently. My father always provides me a perfect critique and he made me learn commonly used business techniques and terms.
Experience has been the best teacher for me.
The first client didn't even pay for the design. Some clients were really hard to work with inspite of all the hardwork while some were really particular about time and clarity of concepts. Some clients tried to exploit by making me work for free as they didn't pay after the completion of the work. Some clients were so considerate that even during the phase of my mother's severe illness, they kept waiting for me, till I restarted my work even though I had told them that I can hand over the work to more experienced senior designers to continue with the work. One of the client (whose book cover was designed by me) celebrated my birthday by bringing a cake at their book publication ceremony! Once one of the client surprised me by sending box of sweets and told that after I had designed their product's package, the sale increased by double in just 15 days than usually before, thus creating a new record for their business. Gradually, even my father's factory also turned out to be my client which was actually like a dream as my father prefers quality of work and for him it doesn't matter who does it, whether his own family member or a person other than his family. 
Some of the printing presses were at first bit not ready to work with me as they didn't like a newly working less experienced female designer suggesting them about printing better in different ways than usual. Some printing presses were extremely supportive and even helped me to get used to prepare my graphic artworks ready for various types of printing.
I had learnt using oil colours from Artist Mrs. Swapna Joshi ma'm in 2012 and later after my mother's demise in 2016, she supported me to restart my work by making me join the Women's Artists Group (a group of almost 25-30 female artists and designers), as I was facing horrible depression. That was one more turning point for me. I restarted designing and painting while managing my home.
Because of the support from Artist Mrs. Priya Patil ma'm and Curator Mrs. Ghayathri Desai, I dared to dream of displaying my artworks at Mumbai as well.
Together, we all members from Women's Artists Group have done social service for the needy by utilising our art.
Being with this wonderful group made me aware of my broken dreams of higher education and thus, when I was feeling completely broken down after my dearest aunt's (father's sister) demise just few months after my mother's demise, while working, I have enrolled for the correspondence course of Diploma in Graphic Design from Open College of Arts (UK) affiliated to the University for Creative Arts (UK). I have completed first Unit of Level 1 and currently studying for the second Unit of Level 1. One more unit of Level 1 and two units of Level 2 will make me achieve my diploma.
I haven't yet tried to exhibit as solo, just because I might be unable to be present throughout
I never had dreamt of displaying my artworks abroad as I still need to improve and learn a lot. But, watching some artists displaying at Dubai, dmade me curious. Also, Curator Mrs. Ghayathri Desai ma'm had once asked me about my plans of exhibiting outside India and also asked for joining her there at Dubai. But, that time I wasn't prepared even mentally.
I just asked two of my friends Artist Mrs. Madhuri Gayawal and Artist Mrs. Hina Bhatt about displaying out of India as they have experienced it. Their views were encouraging and made me rethink as I was always in quest of something new to try. I started gathering information, discussing with various curators, artists and staffs of galleries, comparing the information. This search continued for almost six months in 2018. That time, some people were discouraging me but I kept my search going on. I finally concluded that as I won't be able to air travel since my custom modified wheelchair can't be taken through the flight with me and it can be taken only through the cargo and also as I'm not exhibting as solo artist, I need to have a curator/gallerist who will represent me, take good care of my artworks throughout the shipping, handle, arrange and display them properly, in my absence and also one of the most important fact : affordability of expenses as I'm myself paying each expenses of my design and paintings always from the savings of my income from designing and painting. (I'm clarifying this as some people had doubts "who will pay, you or your father?!"... Why will he pay for me?! If he pays, then why I'm working?!). There were three options : 1. World Art Dubai 2. Nook Asia Singapore 3. ArtExpo New York.
Dubai event was my priority but it didn't work out. Singapore event was not on my list as some aspects were unfavourable. ArtExpo New York was suitable in every way.
Finally, I took up the decision after studying many aspects of exhibiting abroad. Discussed it with my father. My father was at first bit thoughtful and told, "take any decision you wish but always be prepared even for the worst, never shrug off the consequences of your decision, be they good or bad, favourable or unfavourable. Go for it if you wish".
In November 2018, conveyed to Gallerist Mrs. Daxa Khandwala ma'm about my decision to participate in ArtExp New York, by being one of her participant there. She simply guided me so well that all the worries, all difficult aspects got cleared away.
I was already facing deteriorated health issues and was again diagnosed with same old kidney ailment and required surgery again. All of the preparations were going on side by side. Kept preparing for the ArtExpo even on the day of surgery on 7th December 2018. Daxa ma'm was worried about my health more than the preparations as she frequently enquired me first about my health. She even said, that I can do preparations on your behalf but more important is your health getting back to normal. She even herself advised me to not courier my artworks (while all other curators didn't take responsibility of carrying along) but to send personally to her office, so that she could take it along with her and not by courier to avoid damage. At each step, she was very supportive and guided really very well.
Under Gallerist Mrs. Daxa Khandwala ma'm, five of my vector graphics created in CorelDRAW will be displayed as prints at Booth no. 177 - 179 along with the artworks of various mediums by other wonderful artists at ArtExpo New York (2019) from 4th April to 7th April 2019.... Co incidently on the day which marks 8 years of starting my work.... Such an honour… All of the efforts so far proved their worth.
Well, this is my belief that time really proves our work's worth, if it is really done with passion, perseverance, dedication and patience.
This isn't the end of the story.... This is just one more step of life.
I have already started working on other design projects. I have also been exploring some new possibilities. I'm working on them. Soon, I will reveal them one by one as they get ready.
For me, my future is really dark, that I know.... But, art is the only resort, my asylum, my painkiller, my passion... It has showed me my way.... I simply wish may my hands be creating till my last breath.... 























































Thursday, April 4, 2019

Beginning of a journey of dreams...

[Disclaimer: This post is neither to gain any sympathies nor to make you call me ‘inspiring ‘or like that... Just today, I felt to share some of the part of my little journey so far... Neither it is to blame or hurt anyone. What I'm expressing here are real facts and incidents. What I’m sharing is not to make it related to my physicality as that doesn’t make ‘me’, though it’s going to be my part throughout].

Probably, a journey of dreams started much before even I could have realised. But, there comes a time when things finally start fitting in.
Though I have never forgotten how it all started and how it all has shaped my life, which was at the beginning a complete mess (and it still is)...
My elder sisters have inherited their love for art and painting from our parents. Watching them draw and paint always fascinated me since childhood, whenever they were home from boarding school. Many people know my mother was good at drawing. So, is my father actually, but very few are aware. They both didn’t pursue art as they were in different difficult situations during their early stages of life. Also, that era didn’t let common people to give importance to pursuing art as a career. Yet, both of my parents have encouraged us three always to draw and paint. Even one of my elder cousin Kaustubh bhai kept insisting that I would be able to draw digitally too if I learn using computer. It kept ringing in my mind always...
We lived in a sweet, small chawl previously and my sisters were later sent to boarding school just not to let their education be interrupted as we (my parents and I) frequently needed to be at the hospital for treatments and surgeries of my brittle bones for many days. That time, till 9th standard (grade), as I was home-schooled with one appointed teacher teaching me daily for just an hour any one subject as per their convenience of time and for the rest of the day, I would study on my own and under mother or father's guidance whenever they had some time, since our principal then, Prof. Shri. N. D. Pawar Sir didn't allow me to attend daily, though it's legally allowed for any physically disabled student to attend normal school if they can or if they wish but we weren't aware of it. Having a written permission from district level health and disability certificate is enough to attend daily and to have additional half hour during exams to complete any of the formalities of exam questionnaire like naming, tieing the answer sheets together or to highlight and underlining of the important points of answers. I was told to study externally and was made to write my exam papers by sitting separately from the other students of my class, by making me sit at chaotic staff room of the school by the principal, with an excuse that it will not disturb other students, for him I was a nuisance, by saying "if we allow Yogita to attend daily, the parents of other students will object as her presence will create a nuisance for them" ....(nuisance??? By my presence?! How?! He only knew).... Though I scored well, I was never given a ranking in the class as I was permanently 'absent' for all the school days. This too wasn't much important for me. But what he snatched was a base for me... I lost confidence of working with watercolours as they are taught in the art lectures in school days. My teachers like Mrs. Devrukhkar, Mrs. Barve, Mrs. Pulekar kept guiding me maximum every day by coming home. They supported my love for studying.
My mother used to read the books in Marathi and would teach me in the medium I had chosen : English till 6th standard and later, I told my mother that I will study on my own now onwards but just to check my studies daily or to help me with difficulties. My father kept guiding me about maths as he's extremely expert in it. But, this student wasn't much good at maths it seems.
During this phase of home-schooling, I frequently felt lonely as after completing my daily studies at home though my friends from neighbourhood and my cousins would drop in frequently to be with me. I really missed routine any school provides.... Realising this, my parents introduced me to the world of books and mainly art by bringing art materials at home. Since then, books and my colours have been my best friends, my passion, my ambition, my painkiller in painful situations, my fuel to keep living throughout and creating, my asylum whenever life turned extremely tough and depressing.
During the 4th standard, my right arm bone fractured just before few days of the exam but my younger cousin brother became my writer and my year was saved. But, till my arm was cured and till the heavy plaster (put up after the surgery) was removed, I really missed drawing for one and half months.
I always loved drawing during school days but as I wasn't allowed to attend, I completely missed being taught basics of drawing and painting from the art teacher at school. I also wasn't allowed to study and appear for the elementary and intermediate exams of drawing and painting during school, by my mother as she thought it would stress my weak bones of hands that time ....
While studying in 9th standard, my elder cousin Kaustubh bhai once again reminded me of the dream he had inculcated in me: to learn computer and to draw digitally. He helped me buy a computer by guiding and also, he convinced some really good tutors like Mrs. Prasanna Salvi, Miss Megha Kadam (Mrs. Anannya Dalvi) and Mrs. Redekar to guide me to learn the basics of computer and to appear for MS Office exam, to learn HTML and short course of DTP (DeskTop Publishing), while studying in high school and graduation years. I had already learnt using MS Paint from my elder sister Kshama during primary school days when my father's factory's computer was kept at home for few days after bringing it back from repairs and upgrading. During phase of learning using computer, I was gifted by my cousin a CD of games. I frequently lost while playing them as I was more interested in observation of the background graphics of those games than playing. I simply found that playing games as a wastage of time. Never ever till now my computer has a single game installed since then....!
That time, internet wasn't started in our town. Later, there was dial up network but it was extremely costly yet very slow. Things changed onwards.
Books and colours accompanied me everywhere since childhood, even at the hospitals. Even my Orthopaedic Dr. Kedarnath Choubal (Bhatia Hospital, Tardeo, Mumbai) used to express that "I always love to see you studying, reading or creating art whenever I visit your room to check you up!". As he also loved reading books, he even used to make his assistants and accompanying nurses to wait some time aside and would keenly discuss with me about the books I would be reading or would keep looking at my drawing books or notebooks. At the last visit in 2005 for a thigh bone compression fracture during my last year of graduation, Dr. Choubal asked me about my future plans. I told him I'm currently studying in the last year of graduation and soon, I was planning to study more about painting and graphics on my own, so that I can start working, he wholeheartedly expressed his support that "I have seen you since you were a little kid. I really appreciate your efforts. I have seen many patients but you are the one who is always studying, reading or drawing and I really love that!". That was the first time, I felt that probably I was on the right track.
Our former school-principal retired and the new one, our maths and geography teacher, Shri. Joy Sebastian Sir became principal, who had witnessed this injustice and told me to attend the school daily and to be in the batch of students studying for the 10th standard exam with score of 70% and more in 9th standard, as my score was eligible for it. That was the first time, I was able to attend school full time. But, worst was I had lost an opportunity of being taught the basics of drawing and painting at primary level and secondary level of school. I also loved science and languages and scored well in those subjects. I loved drawing the diagrams for science journals and experiments. In return of teaching me algebra (which I found hard), my friends would tell me to draw science diagrams for them.
Till then, I was always told by my family that you'll be cured one day just not to make me depressed and that made me dream more and more. I would dream to be either a fashion designer or doctor or scientist or an astronaut. Love for astronomy was stronger than anything else and so, being an astronaut was my biggest dream. After 10th standard of school, I realised that this disorder won't be cured and it's a permanent condition which will end only with me. That was extremely frustrating to see the dreams of higher education broken to pieces as there were very few colleges at my town and there were only three options to choose : science, commerce and arts. As I found maths and accounting hard, I simply didn't feel to graduate in commerce. Science was my top preference but again I was misguided that I wouldn't get assistance in getting apparatuses arranged in laboratory to perform my experiments. So, I had to leave it from my mind. Only option was to graduate in arts with very few subjects available that time. I had to choose it. I had also tried to gather information about graduating in fine arts and psychology. But, as those colleges were away from town and in cities, it was impractical to commute daily as would waste time of studying or to stay temporarily out of town near the college with the help of my mother or a maid meant that my father would have to manage our home and our spices factory alone.
During high school and graduation, there were difficulties at each step. First was a complete change in the medium. I had studied in English medium at school while at high school and graduation, the only medium available was Marathi. At our home and in surroundings, we speak and use Marathi language only. Even I love my mother tongue Marathi. I also love writing in Marathi language. But, considering the competitive limited time for exams, I found my speed for writing in Devnagari script of Marathi was slower for all the subjects than writing in Roman script of English as I was used to it. I discussed with my parents and professors about this issue. They told, "you can switch the medium but the only issue is you'll need to teach yourself those subjects as we don't teach both mediums". Challenging it was, but I studied Economics, Geography and History that way for five years total (2 years of high school and 3 years of graduation). I was able to keep myself engrossed in reading books from our college library. There were not much availability of books or guides for the medium I had chosen nor was anyone there to guide me. My professors found it bit hard to guide me in English as I was the only one student from our Taluka who had chosen this medium for graduation. Yet they supported my decision in every possible way by helping me. I converted the notes they provided us at class after listening to their lectures.
Once I was taunted by a well-known, well-educated editor (of a famous newspaper in Konkan) who was my eldest uncle's friend, visited our home for condolences, few days after my granny's demise. As our exams were nearing, my cousins and I were studying together in another room. Some of them are engineers. I know, my arts graduation wasn't glamorous and prestigious as is engineering or any other field. But, we never compared. Our guest asked them all what they were studying currently. They told about engineering. He turned to me and asked. I told I was studying for my majors, English and History. He mocked, "तुझ्यासारख्यांनी असे अवघड विषय कशाला घ्यायचे?!" (people like you shouldn't opt for such difficult subjects). I politely but firmly told that I love doing difficult things only.
I was completely engrossed in getting my graduation completed and to get my degree in English as language and History. Yet, there was something that I felt was missing in my life. I kept sulking over broken dreams. Those broken dreams kept hurting my mind like shards of glass....
For first 6 months almost of the first year of graduation, I didn't even know who were my classmates as I focused completely on studies only. Later, I really found my friends for life at college....
Unfortunately since my childhood, some so-called relatives from maternal family taunted me directly and indirectly as a burden for my parents and worst was one of the famous gynaecologist who had been our distant relative from our town kept spreading lies to break the nuptial ties of my elder sister, that I'll be her burden in absence of my parents in future. Just to seek a revenge of an incident in past to which I wasn't at all related.
This all kept frustrating me and I found hard to concentrate on anything. I kept sketching and drawing on the back pages of books and notebooks, in the area of margins of pages even during the lectures. Those were just simple sketches but that soothed my mind. I found that Artist Shri. Rahul Deshpande and Artist Shri. Gopal Nandurkar from Pune provided correspondence course through 'Kalaakalp', a private art institute. I enrolled into it and completed two 8 months courses of basics and landscape. It made me feel better.
Just after my 2nd year of graduation completed and 3rd, final year was about to start, I lost both of my grannies and a tragic accident of my father and some family members which led to the demise of my uncle. It was extremely hard phase to face.... Only art was the resort.... Without firm support of eldest sister Leena tai, my graduation wouldn't have been possible that year in that tough phase.
As graduation neared, all my friends aimed for post graduation in languages or social sciences by completing M.A. or PhD, B.Ed., etc. and to be a teacher or professor. I didn't feel that way though everyone including my professors, friends and my parents too (at the beginning) were insisting me to follow this same path, to be a teacher at school or a professor at college or to start coaching students from home. I know it's really a noble profession and gives stable life with stable income as well. But, making myself tied to a same routine, same syllabus for years and years, that too not of the subjects of my choice, would have been very 'boring'.
As my father is businessman and industrialist and observing him since my childhood, listening to the struggle he and my uncles faced always fascinated me. My whole paternal family is business oriented. I have those genes. I felt I must make a decision by considering all the aspects. I also had considered working with my father in our factory as per his suggestion. But, he  has done such a great work already that how would I be of use there, I thought. My creativity needed little channel of itself probably.
I had previously seen the printed proofs of package designs created by a designer for our spices factory and later found out it was done in software CorelDRAW!
I felt the short introduction of DeskTop Publishing wasn't enough. So, after completing graduation in 2006, I told my parents that "I will not apply for the job anywhere nor will I follow an old treaded path, I will work on my own, I will try to strike a balance of art and business together. I wish to pursue drawing, painting and graphic design but I need few years to study on my own for it, please let me follow my own path of dreams". They were at first shocked, stunned and also anxious how I will be able to do it. They told me to rethink. I gave it a second thought but couldn't imagine anything else. The only person who by whole heart supported me in this since beginning was my elder sister Kshama, in every way! Even my eldest sister Leena tai was at first anxious probably but always encouraged. So, did my whole paternal family. I kept studying on my own by reading, observing, practicing and creating for almost four years. The internet service was improved yet costly till then. I had started using GPRS for internet on mobile and accessed internet on computer by tethering. So, I used it only once or twice a week, just to download tutorials or to check emails of subscriptions of study materials. I also completed a correspondence course named 'Diploma in DTP' from a private institute in Pune. But, it was too short for learning graphic design. So, I kept studying in details.
The self study was tedious but what tried to drain my energy was worst taunting and insults like 'she must be playing games on computer', 'a good timepass for her', 'who will give you work here in the small town?!', 'what is the use of graphic design now?! Print is dead. Only animation and web design is trendy and gives good income', etc.
My elder cousin Kaustubh bhai meanwhile introduced me to his ex colleague who is hardware engineer and a very expert technician Shri. Mansoor Nadkar. Since then, he has been my technician and a perfect guide who not just provides technical solutions but also helps me to install my softwares. He has simply became a family member. He always has a perfect solution to each and every technical issue and guides me throughout, always and is just a phone call away, any hour of the day... He is a witness of all this journey of graphic design....! Without him, I can't imagine how I would have managed and he too is always very enthusiastic about new upgradations and even proud of my work...
In 2009, my artwork was given third prize in a competition by well-known senior Artist Shri. Ravi Paranjpe. Life started changing again.
But my whole life crashed down once again. Doctors sealed the fact after one final treatment of bone disorder that it won't cure. Being young, I too had felt the touch of love in my life for almost four years but in 2009, it ended in a heartbroken way with worst insult. I fell in a deep depression. My mother was away in USA with my eldest sister who was expecting twins. So, I had learned managing home in her absence. Just few days ago before she left for USA, I was badly insulted once again by my maternal uncle and aunt that I hadn't tried enough to be cured, to stand up and walk like normal, and I was kind of burden for my parents. Depression grew worst.... I simply did nothing about my career and wasted whole year almost in the phase, sulking till half of 2010. My health deteriorated once again. An ailment related to abdomen resurfaced which was had started in 2007 and was cured previously. Also, as I didn't pay attention to my health, my bone disorder led me to its consequence: my kidneys got affected by the accumulation and deposition of calcium in kidney. It led to many surgeries and painful treatments as well as frequent draining of kidneys and bladder to save them for next 3 and half years. My family-doctor and my brother-in-law Dr. Shri. Upendra Talathi guided me throughout and helped me to bring myself out of this phase by his statement, "flow like a river, Yogita, don't stagnate yourself". His guidance worked wonders for me....
I restarted my life in a new way. I completed my study. My vector graphics 'Yellow Flower' won 5th prize and 'Wild Flowers Branch' in 'Corel Asia Pacific Digital Art Competition' in 2010 and 2011-2012 held by Corel Corporation (Taiwan), a division of Corel Corporation (Canada). This competition was for the countries in Asia and the countries surrounding the Pacific Ocean. I had the documentation and I started my work as freelance graphic designer and artist, under the name 'Dzyn Studio' since 4th April 2011 (on the festival of Gudhipadwa). I already had plans of bank loan for it but my father funded it temporarily and I repaid it in another way by earning.
I officially started working from my home office, my own legal workspace, though from a little corner of home.
Yellow Flower

Wild Flowers Branch


Tuesday, April 2, 2019

Dreams come true, in one form or another....

"Long long ago, there was a girl who always dreamt of being an astronaut... Later, she realised her dream will only remain a dream..." (someone would have remarked over this 'why not, she could have if she had tried')...
But, no, sometimes some dreams just remain dreams, because reality is different... those dreams remain somewhere deep down in the heart, sometimes they try to peep in life in one way or another or sometimes they simply keep hurting like shards of glass....
Since my childhood (& even later till now) which I spent maximum at the hospitals like Bhatia Hospital (Tardeo) in Mumbai (& at Pune too) for surgeries & treatments of my brittle bones disorder, I always loved to see things from extreme heights, because whenever I would feel bored in the hospital, my father always took me out of the room on the upper floor for sometime & we would 'sit' (I lying down on the stretcher with reclining position) for hours at the big glass-covered windows in the verandah, watching the cars & pedestrians below, the tall buildings in the surrounding as well as those far away.... Everything would seem beautiful though tiny from those heights but I could see everything far far away....
Even watching places on 'Google Earth' from above, few years ago or on the maps in the atlas in school days was always my favourite...
Few years ago, one of my brother-in-law Shri. Anand Desai had gifted me a beautiful book named 'Maharashtra Desha' by Shri. Uddhav Thakre about aerial photography of various places in state Maharashtra (India) where we live. Those beautiful photos are clicked from helicopter and compiled together.
My father had travelled by air during my college days to recieve a prestigious award at Delhi, for his business.
My mother & my paternal aunts had travelled one after another to USA for the first time to be with my elder sister during her pregnancy and delivery of twin babies. That time, I had helped them to complete all the documentation and also to guide them how the process of air travel will be. My own sisters, cousins, friends had travelled by air so far to various places for their work or for vacationing. But, I myself couldn't, just out of technical reasons. So far I have travelled by train only once that too while lying down on a seat in horizontal position, but by car & by various types of boats & ships for so many times using reclining seat or by being in the customised manual recliner wheelchair / battery operated wheelchair in the car. My mom used to tell my father to visit my sister in USA but he always told her that "no, not till I can take my daughter with me". Till then, sky was really a limit & still it is by some technical reasons,....
One big obstacle: complicated, rigid rules to take your own customised manual recliner wheelchair (which is the only source of mobility for me in absence of my battery operated wheelchair), as a seat or to go till the seat/bed in the aeroplane. It isn't allowed. The airport staff told us that we need to take the normal manual wheelchair only. Also, we need to take a practicing doctor with us every time... (are wheelchair users always supposed to be sick or ill or do our doctors need to accompany us always even if we travel for vacation with family/for work?!)... Also, though my battery operated wheelchair has gel battery (which is allowed) & not the carbon battery (which isn't allowed in the plane), it would be put in the cargo of the plane & not in the plane as a seat directly or as a means to shift to the bed in the plane. At such times, I was told only to use their ambulance lift or normal wheelchair to go in the plane. I can't use normal manual wheelchair as I can't sit full 90° upright with feet on the footrest of the wheelchair/seat & also I'm not allowed to sit by orthopaedics, otherwise my spine might damage.
Me & my family had almost lost the dream of air travel atleast once for me.
During 2015, my father came across an advertisement of helicopter ride in Mumbai by Retired Airforce Officer Shri. Prashant P Oak Sir & we had also tried to plan a ride, but as my mother again faced illness & lost her battle in 2016, we totally had abandoned the idea. Also, my health diminished again due to the restart of kidney ailment. But, since surgery, health recovered a bit & this dream of air travel again sprung up in mind of my father. By co incindence, he saw an advertisement on WhatsApp about helicopter rides arranged by Shri. Omkar Gondkar along with Raje Trekkers & Mandke Aviation who had collaboration to arrange the rides. My father contacted him for further information & booking. Many technical issues in between made it difficult to bring it into reality but, there comes a time when dreams do fulfill by willingness & co operation. Extremely confident, experienced pilot Shri. Raje, a wonderful team of the arrangers & the one who was ready to help us throughout since the Day 1, Shri. Gondkar, helped me to fulfill the dream so beautifully, that too giving me 2 paid rides on both routes ... My whole family & even my driver-uncle too who has been with us for many years, have been extremely happy to see the long cherished dream coming true today on 2nd March 2019, Saturday, finally!
Thank you ,all....I really don't know how should I convey my gratitude.... My mother too would have been extremely happy & excited today....